I have officially been a mommy since October 17 2013 at 10:29 a.m. and I honestly could not imagine my life any differently. My daughter, Stella Irene is truly one of the best babies I've ever known. (No I'm not just saying that because I'm her mom, other people have said it too!) She's a little peanut who was born via c section because of my epilepsy. She has the most beautiful blue eyes and seems to have red hair at the moment. The best way to describe her is a baby with an old soul.
I remember life before baby, but it feels like it took place years ago and not just 3 months. There is this wonderful thing that I used to be able to partake in for as long as I wanted and it is called sleep. That magical time where you can lay your head on a pillow, snuggle up under the blankets, and only be woken when you wanted to be. Now I'm just happy if she sleeps longer then 2 hours at a time. Don't get me wrong though.. She doesn't wake up crying or fussing away which is nice. She's just a hungry little monkey going through a growth spurt at the moment. Since she was born, her and I co sleep while Daddy sleeps in her room. This is not my choice, I would love to have my husband with us. He is an engineer and needs it in order to be able to perform well at work. So until Stella sleeps through the night I guess this is how it will be.
Prior to becoming a mom, I was the typical kid-less person who judged other parents on how they parented, where they let their child sleep, what they fed them, etc etc etc. Now that I am a mom and I'm doing exactly the opposite of what I said I would do as a parent, (ie. Stella co sleeping with me) I am trying not to judge as much. When I see a mom breastfeeding in public I don't get grossed out anymore. Instead I wish I had been able to produce milk longer so that my daughter could continue to get the best food for her. At the same time, when I see a mom giving her baby formula, I don't judge her for that choice either. Maybe she couldn't produce, maybe the baby is adopted, or maybe she's a single mother that has to work to support her family and can't be home to breastfeed. Every mother parents differently and that doesn't make one way better then the other. As long as the child/children are happy, healthy, safe who am I to judge?
That's all I have for now, the baby is calling me from her morning nap!
Stay happy and be good to each other!
Katelyn
